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Well, as all of my peers are gg to graduate soon, the topic of "Jobs" is inevitable, and depressing for me cuz I think the worst situation has happened to me - I don't know what I want. *sigh* Let's just say, I'm an insecure and indecisive person.

Insecure - I am just that. I can't find any other word that can better describe myself. While everyone else is busy getting their resumes done up, I feel so lost. I'm envious at those who has a direction in life, who knows what they like and don't, who dare to venture out... while I'm like a timid and pathetic mouse finding a place to hide safely and watch the world go by.

And other than being insecure in my personal development, I'm also very ruled by my negative emotions. My tear ducts are unbelieavbly active (As many shld know). I can't suppress them as strongly as I think I would. I always blame my weak character on some other reasons, but largely it's because my indecisiveness and ignorance - because I don't know what I want, I don't know who I am. And also because i'm so bad with words, some friends just don't have the patience listening to me. So I keep to myself alot.

I dunno what to say. All these emo-ness sux. I need some positivitiy in life.